In this darkening twilight
In the grip of caustic expectations 
In this void of promise
Dwell here

In the dread of uncertainty
In this frozen nothing
In these sodden garments
Dwell here

In this blackening stillness
In the muted obscurity
In the absence of heartbeat
Dwell here

In the coercion of sadness
In the aggression of weeping
In the constancy of anguish 
Dwell here

In the paralysis of malignancy 
In the suspension of senses
In the mire of numbed spirit
In the terror of falling
Dwell there

Stand in the tension
Wait for the cracks
Repose is coming
Rays will rupture
But for now
Dwell here

Surely he was the Son the God

Spat out, no longer kissed.

Surely he was the Son of God

Sliced open, gorged on, ripped

Surely he was the Son of God

Vintage, sloshed and guzzled

Surely he was the Son of God

Defiled, blemished, muzzled

Surely he was the Son of God

Sin of God that never was

Surely he was the son of God

Flawless Son who always was

Such womb like love

Birth through his pain

My jubilant birth in his demise

Surely he was. 

Surely he was.

Surely he was the Son of God…

What can I bring him?

Poor as I am?

If he were a wise man he’d have brought a lamb.

Surely he was. 

Surely he was.

Surely he was the Son of God…

What can I give him?

Head, heart and hands.

I’ll leave behind my mother

Love in foreign lands

Surely he was. 

Surely he was.

Surely he was the Son of God…

Surely he was the son of God

Freely that I have recieved?

Surely he was the son of God?

Such cost I disbelieve…

Can we balance the scales and see rest and rupture on a level playing field?  Community always comes at great cost whether it be with eachother or with God.  There is much rest to be found in the place of Christian community but before we make it that far there is an embrace with Christ that might cost us everything, a place in which we encounter a love that will not in the first instance repair but rather a love that could tear us apart.

So often in church we hear that there we will find purpose, peace and a place to belong.  There often comes with the embrace of newly found or rediscovered faith the promise of solace from hardships, a deeply seeded joy in our hearts and a settling down of the sea of despair that life can sometimes be.  In being reconciled to each other and to God the promise is often one of rest.  In accepting the invitation to enter into Christian community the focus is more often on the gain and not the cost.  The cornerstone of such an invitation is usually that which we aquire as opposed to that which we give up, lose or shed…

Show me pictures
Beautiful pictures
Beautiful pictures and peace
Here where I am
Here where I am Lord
Here where we are Lord together

O how I see it
Now I can see you
O I can see you redeeming
Now in this moment
A mundane found moment
A magical moment reclaimed

In this I’m retreating
Retreating,reposing
Retreating, reposing on you
Show me pictures
Beautiful pictures
Beautiful pictures and peace